Dispair

Besides harboring major bitterness towards my former employer for layoffs...I'm seriously pissed off right now. Out of 20+ cover letters I wrote, I received about 7 inquiries which resulted in 2 interviews for two places that flat out said during the interview that they are NOT hiring.

Great. Now what? WTF? I have reached despair and I honestly feel like I'm experiencing the five stages of grief. This is so depressing. What if I don't get a good job? What if I get a job somewhere I don't like? What if I work at a job with no benefits? What if I get a job that wastes my education?

Maybe I really should go back to school for HVAC tech/apprentice or perhaprs surveryor...? Seriously, I could make some great money in plumbing and HVAC, I know it. I'm mechanically inclined enough to do well. Maybe I should be an electrician instead though cause that does run in my blood. Oh well.

But really, what is up with going to an interview and then finding out that the people across from the table are telling you to forget it and you'll never work in that industry again. It kinda makes me think back to the early 1900s and people being blacklisted and stuff. Yes, really. I can't believe interviewers tell me to my face I'll never work on Delmarva again. It demeaning. It just makes me wonder what vicious things my former employer may have planted.